I SUCK. I SUCK. I SUCK.
I have been SUCKING lately. Sorry, but it's true. I am not getting anywhere with my weight loss goals or my strive to change my eating habits. I am making horrible choices, purposely choose the WRONG things and not paying attention to what I am doing. I am not tracking what I am eating consistently, I am not drinking enough water, and I AM drinking too much Diet Coke. I am still working out with my Team Weight Loss program (thankfully), but I could be working out harder.
What is it that makes me NOT do what I know I am capable of doing? If I sit and think about what I WANT to accomplish, I get motivated because I want so badly to be healthier and I want to make the necessary changes to help accomplish this. Yet, when it comes time to actually doing what I NEED to do, I shrug it off and go back to my daily habits: A bagel for breakfast loaded with cream cheese (low fat! like that makes any difference), TOO MUCH DIET COKE, and not enough fresh fruit and vegetables. Too much red meat. TOO MUCH white sugar, DIET COKE. DIET COKE. DIET COKE.
So, ya. I suck right now. I see the effects of my suckiness everywhere: my back still hurts and I know it's because I am not taking care of myself. My hair seems duller than normal (my hair is usually really thick and shiny. Sigh). My attitude is LESS THAN STELLAR. I could go on....
So, YA. I am in a grumpy place right now. I am kind of regretting throwing this out there but whatever. This is me being accountable--even in the smallest of amounts. And, I know that there are those out there reading this who've been in my position and have come through on the other side.
I am selfishly hoping you'll leave some advice, some ass-kicking, shut-up and do it, stop talking and get with it, you have to go to DisneyWorld in 2 months Suzi so get your ass in gear comments. Please!? :)
Ugh.
7 comments:
Okay lady - take a deep breath and look around u. U r okay. Ur alive & breathing and okay! U r exactly where u need to be at this exact moment. And now, u have a choice. Change what u've been doing and fight or keep making the same decisions. U r in control of this. U have the power to make the same choices or make different choices. This is all about u - I believe in u and know u can fight through this Suzi!
Hey girl! We all find ourselves in these moods, whether in the beginning of our healthy living journey or after we have achieved our goals. (I am at the beginning and have days where I wonder what I am doing and how I am going to keep up and whether I am strong enough to keep it up.) We also all have our weaknesses... Mine is dealing with random cravings. It sounds like yours is Diet Coke.
Did you sign up for Jen's Future PriorFatGirl get-together later this month? I did! (And you should too!!) I think that was a big step for me... I feel like I will be a little more accountable now that I will be meeting people and letting them know about my goals.
Also, Disney World?!? YAY! I am going to WDW for the first time next month and I'm really excited!
I'm in the same exact place as you. I know what I need to do to make the changes necessary - yet I don't. Why? I don't know. I look at pics of myself from 5 years ago-I was happy, and happy with my weight. Right now, I can't STAND myself in pictures...or in the mirror. This is not who I want to be. I must stop with the terrible habits...but if it were so easy-we'd all be perfect & thin right?
An easy way I track what goes in my mouth each day (for free) is myfitnesspal.com -
It's an amazing site-IF you use it-I slack on that too-
Hang in there Suzi-you can do this. WE can do this!
OH, this is SO me! I drink diet coke like it is going out of style. I crave sugar and fat like I'm never going to eat again, and hate myself for constantly making the wrong choices.
I don't know how to change exactly but do you want to work together? We can check in daily and be a support for the other? maybe?
In the meantime, we all love you and want to help however we can!
Yep, certainly been there, done that - still do it at times. I think two things that have helped me are to remember, constantly tell myself, drill it into my head that I always feel better after a run/excercise/whatever then I do before it. Oh, and when I'm craving those sweets/chocolates/ice cream... I blame it on the 10 year old me who has decided never to completely leave me alone... I recognize my 10year old self... and then fight it off... I. am. not. 10. years. old. anymore. Go away. :)
ps I'm going to Disney in two months too!!
Breath ... count to 10 and just smile. I am serious it works! Hang in there!
Stopping by from SITS!
I know I am late, but better late then never!
You are doing wonderful! Weight loss of any kind takes time, and patience. I know it is hard, but we are all here for you!!!
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