Some days those numbers are reversed.
You see, when we decided last May that we were going to do a big ol’ DisneyWorld extravaganza, I made a vow that I would NOT go to DisneyWorld in my current shape. I vowed to get to my goal weight and this trip would be my reward.
Ya, not so much.
Sadly, I am nowhere near my goal weight. I had hoped that having this trip on my horizon would be the impetus I had been looking for to finally lose the weight. How sad. So, here I am, 58 days away from this amazingly awesome vacation with my loving husband and two awesome girls, and I am already fretting about it. I still have a few weeks left so all hope is not lost to make some progress, but it’s too late for any “transformation”. Seriously, who thinks like this!?
It just goes to show you how ridiculous weight issues make you feel. I mean really. I love my body. It’s hard for me to focus on the fact that I had two near perfect pregnancies and two smooth deliveries resulting in two amazing daughters. I don’t have any chronic health issues and when I get sick or injured, I heal pretty darn fast. I am lucky. I have friends who have battled cancer, lost friends who’ve battled lifelong illnesses, and have friends who had miscarriages. I don’t have anything to complain about, including my squishy butt. It’s easy to focus on what you SEE—and right now I see flaws. Not the strengths.
So, as the clock ticks down the days to 0 and we fly off to our DisneyWorld adventure, I will try and remember that while my body may be squishy, it’s not broken. I won’t wallow in the superficialness of it all and focus on soaking up the smiles and laughter and wide eyes of my daughters.
2 comments:
oh honey - I hear you. Really I do. With my Disney trip here and gone - I am right there with you. In looking at the pictures - I am so saddened by what I see. How I am not the girl I know I can be...sure I am the (mostly) same on the inside-but the outside...I am so unhappy with how I look in pictures. I only posted the good ones on my blog - but there are tons more that really make me ache. It's time I get serious.
So that for my NEXT trip...my REWARD for getting fit...I will be posing for the camera!
We are headed to Disney soon too!
I am excited most of the time, but get nervous about having two small kids.
58 days won't put you where you want to be likely, but you could get into a pretty good routine by then. I know when I am way far off from reaching a goal, I feel better if I am trying something different to get there.
No matter what, your girls will always remember how much you laughed and the fun you had!
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