Suck it up, Buttercup!

Even I am tired of me. I’ve been wallowing in self-pity about life lately and some of my blog posts (well, most of them) have been rather maudlin and depressing. Debbie Downer—party of one! That’s me! I am sick of it. Sick of feeling sad about my stupid (yes, STOOOOOPPPIIIIDDD) weight loss issues. Sick of keeping things bottled up until I explode and either take it out on Jason or the kids. I’ve been grumpy lately and it’s been more than evident in my writing and most importantly, my attitude.

Jason and I had one of those conversations last night. You know, one of thooooseee. The one where you hear things you know the other has been thinking but hasn’t said. It was super fun! (NOT). But, it was necessary. 

Necessary for me to realize just how STUPID I’ve been acting. Sure, it’s okay to be in a funk about things and perhaps to even be a little more whiney than usual. BUT, it’s not okay to continue to whine and be maudlin about things you are doing NOTHING to change. Yep, that was me. Complaining and whining about my lack of progress while doing nothing tangible about it.

I want to thank you guys for putting up with my sad sack face lately. I know that what I write is essentially what I am feeling, but still, I think I let my frustrations get the best of me and I started to fall down that rabbit hole of no motivation, frustration, and utter despair. I needed a good jolt to wake me up and to realize that I am totally capable of doing anything. Including getting to my goal. I got my jolt and I feel great.

So, there. I am OVER it. I am over feeling sorry for myself. I am ready to do the hard work and am ready to stop making excuses.

Time to suck it up.

Buttercup.